No Evil

Hello. First post of 2012.

I feel like I’m still living in 2011. I’m still typing 2011 at times. It just doesn’t feel like it’s already a new year.

I can’t believe I’m turning 19 in just 14 days time. And Chinese New Year is in 15 days time. Yes, apparently my Chinese birthday is on Chinese New Year Eve.

8 days have passed. Within 8 days, there are lot of fun stuff that happened like celebrating the new year till early in the morning, Open House 2012 and random stuffs in school. Let’s hope this would continue on for the rest of the year.

Anyway, this year, for my birthday, I don’t have the mood to celebrate. I’m clueless about what to do. My friends would definitely be not free on the actual day. Other people whose birthday is around mine actually have parties or something but not me. I would never expect my friends to actually surprise me. That’s like something they would never do for me. All of them would just be waiting for me to plan something then tell them. I’m always the birthday cum organiser. FML.

Actually, I don’t anyone would remember my birthday. It’s not like my 17th where I could drill it into all my besties mind. I was just too thick-skinned then. Not now.

Talking about besties. I don’t feel like I have any other than Orlena. They are all too busy. Just too busy.  I don’t even talk to them much. Only when we actually see each other or plan to meet up then we would talk. I don’t like it.

Why is this happening? I don’t know. I hate it a lot. I hate it when we’re suppose to meet up and people cancel on me. I hate it when they don’t bother. I hate it when it seems like I’m the only one that wants to meet up and like I’m forcing on them to meet me. I just hate it all.